You will end up spending lot of your precious energy to try to compete and prove and impress. This may wear you out. Are you sure the goal you are chasing is your own goal or is it chosen just to prove yourself ? When you live in a proving mode, it’s like you’re on a treadmill. As soon as you prove to one person that you’re okay, you’ll see somebody else you need to impress. It’s a never-ending cycle. Get off that treadmill. You’re working hard but not going anywhere. So relax and stop proving yourself to others. Just be true to yourself and choose what you really want to do.